I've Been Asleep...

I hardly remember the last time I posted, and was amazed to see that four months have gone by and nothing much has changed.  This summer was suffocating in so many respects.  The heat, work, family issues.  There were moments where I felt like I could literally not breathe.  I joined a weight loss group but I am still swaggering between the same five pounds lost and gained.  I got a new haircut which helped slim my face down but the numbers do not lie.  All these grand ideas and nothing to show for it.  I'm pretty bummed with myself right now, lol.

The husband signed us up to live in the bird cage ... err ... rental for another year, and he did it without consulting me.  This did not go over too well, but I can hardly blame him because he has to move most of our stuff.  He really wants to do it one more time when we move to our retirement home...where ever that might land us.  So, why do I call it the "bird cage?"  This house is nestled in the back end of an established development.  It is very quiet and peaceful.  You turn onto our street and come to our driveway and it is a very steep ascent upwards to a flat parcel of land surrounded by dense forest.  Three sides to this home is cleared property up to the forest line.  However, the back part of the house is hugged by forest and leads to a very rugged descent downward to a creek.  The ground is very soft in a lot of areas.  I have this fear that one day I am going to step down just right and disappear into a sink hole.  I can't enjoy the back deck because of all the bugs (mostly spider variety) that love it, too.  So, I feel like I am in somewhat of a birdcage because of how it is laid out and surrounded.  I have accepted the fact that I now prefer cleared properties, and if there is woods -- they will be about .5 miles away from the home, lol.  When I was a girl, I use to daydream about having the perfect home in a wooded area with one road coming in and one road going out...ummm, not no more.  I don't mind trees or even hiking, but for whatever reason (maybe the creek?) the bugs seem to gravitate to this place.  Ugh!  It is actually quite restful and beautiful up here, but I could do without the creepies.

This summer we went to Canada.  We got to complete our high three tourist picks: 1) Lady in the Mist boat ride; 2) hike behind the Falls; 3) dinner in the Pencil restaurant.  We landed each event just right and snagged the best seats or standing point for photos.  People can be very rude and pushy over taking photos, too.  It wasn't our fault we were blessed to get the best spots.  We did not push our way to it either, we just happened on it.  Then everyone wants to be your best friend and get all in your personal space.  I had to tell one young lady to back off after she rammed me about three times.  I'm tolerant but I'm not a doormat.

This morning was inviting outside, but from the news it will not last.  We are up for some warmer temps again as the week progresses. I love the fall and spring, winter and summer not so much.  At any rate, hopefully by the time I write again some things have turned around in a positive direction.  Right now, my heart just is not in it and that's okay.  We all have those seasons, just having mine and I will take the lessons learned from it and move onward.